It’s surreal that I am writing this post, but today I’m publicly announcing that after nine years, I am leaving Go Media. This also means I am stepping down from Weapons of Mass Creation, the event that I founded in 2010. It is with a tender heart that I leave behind my dream job and my pride and joy.
This post originally appeared on the Go Media blog here. I felt like I should repost it here on my personal blog.
Before I get into more details, let me assure you that Go Media and WMC are going on without me. I will talk about the future of both towards the end of my post. For now, let me tell you why I’m leaving.
It’s not for a higher salary or big opportunity at a new company. It’s not because I don’t like Go Media or WMC. It’s not because I’m joining the circus…
The truth is, I’ve come to terms with a persistent feeling that a chapter of my life is ending. There’s a deep sense that my work here is done. That this particular mission has been accomplished and it’s time to move on.
I’ve resisted this feeling for over a year and a half and tried to suppress it. I felt guilty for feeling this way and tried to work through it thinking it was just temporary. I didn’t want to listen to this feeling because that meant quitting or giving up. That scared me to death.
I didn’t want to let it go.
WMC was my baby! How could I leave something that has been so amazing? Who would want to leave such a good thing? By leaving, does that automatically mean it was bad? I mean, what would everyone think if the founder left? My mind was cluttered with worst-case thoughts of disaster and turmoil. But the truth is WMC is a lot bigger than just one person. And the past few years showed me that people around me are eager to step up and help out.
But quitting is hard for me. I would stick it out through the best and worst of times. I was loyal ’til the end. Quitting was for quitters I thought.